My dearest friend, where have you gone?
At this time it all feels so wrong.
I'm sorry if you thought I didn't care,
Especially when you really needed me there.
I don't believe that they could tease you so.
How did they get you down so low?
But you never told a soul about your strife.
In the end it was enough to take your life.
It makes me angry, it makes me sad,
That no one could notice something so bad.
The thought of it all makes my stomach churn.
But we all know you won't be making a return.
I get that the stress made you crack,
But nothing I can do can ever bring you back.
I sit in the dry river bed, where the water used to flow.
It was the blood of this body of land, without it, everything must die.
I take the rope hanging from the branch above.
A few summers ago, we would swing off it into the refreshing cool.
I sit in the dry river bed, where the animals used to come.
There is nowhere here for them to quench their thirst, so they have left.
The trees have used up all they had, and they also are going.
I feel that I too am dying inside, without the life-blood here.
I sit in the dry river bed, where most of my memories come from.
Camping and fishing and picnics galore were had.
I quietly begin to w
My dearest friend, where have you gone?
At this time it all feels so wrong.
I'm sorry if you thought I didn't care,
Especially when you really needed me there.
I don't believe that they could tease you so.
How did they get you down so low?
But you never told a soul about your strife.
In the end it was enough to take your life.
It makes me angry, it makes me sad,
That no one could notice something so bad.
The thought of it all makes my stomach churn.
But we all know you won't be making a return.
I get that the stress made you crack,
But nothing I can do can ever bring you back.
I sit in the dry river bed, where the water used to flow.
It was the blood of this body of land, without it, everything must die.
I take the rope hanging from the branch above.
A few summers ago, we would swing off it into the refreshing cool.
I sit in the dry river bed, where the animals used to come.
There is nowhere here for them to quench their thirst, so they have left.
The trees have used up all they had, and they also are going.
I feel that I too am dying inside, without the life-blood here.
I sit in the dry river bed, where most of my memories come from.
Camping and fishing and picnics galore were had.
I quietly begin to w
Please just say you'll stay with me forever,
Even if they're only sweet lies.
Tell me that you'll come back someday,
And fill me up with sickening wishes.
Kiss me sweetly,
Make me think you actually want me.
And when you touch me make it tender,
So that later I can wash it all away.
And in the morning,
When the light shines in,
Let your empty space be the one to have reality sink in.
Trust me,
It'd be better this way.
I stopped wondering a long time ago,
Where you'd been & who you're with.
I'd given up on you & me,
But my heart sometimes still falls apart.
Because goodbyes have always been hard for me,
They're hard t
I wonder what it's like
To be elite, to have people know who I am
I wonder what it's like
To be heard, where people care about what I say
I wonder what it's like
To feel welcomed, where people want me around
I wonder what it's like
Oh I wonder what it's like
What am I kidding myself
It's not like I'll ever know
But I still
I wonder what it's like
I wonder what it's like
To be invited, to go out and party
I wonder what it's like
To hangout, see a movie with somebody
I wonder what it's like
To have friends, who are there to the end
I wonder what it's like
Oh I wonder what it's like
What am I kidding myself
If I hugged you,
would you never let go?
If I kissed you,
would you cherish that moment?
If I reached for your hand,
would you take mine gently?
If I needed a shoulder,
would you let me cry on yours?
If I needed to talk,
would you really listen?
If I needed to scream,
would you do it with me?
If I needed to go,
would you come with me?
If I fell for you,
would you catch me?
or just let me hit the pavement?
For those who don't know, I am currently onholiday in Europe. At the moment I'm in Hamburg, Germany. I've just realised that I have been here for over 2 weeks now, seen the most amazing things and yet haven't written anything except for somne emails and postcards.
It's very unusual for me not to be writting and to be honest, I'm quite annoyed with myself. But I guess there is no point in forcing myself to write, it has to flow naturally or it better not flow at all.
Ah boy. My life is a pretty messed up place. But the good thing is that I can't get hurt anymore than I already have been. Had a fun day today, until I was brought back to reality, where my life is not how I want it to be.
I have my work training this week. Oh what fun it shall be, with all that oil and greese.....mmmmm.....yum.
I'm also writting some pretty interesting poetry lately. It starts off really nicely and seems like it will be a very pretty poem, but by the end I'm cursing at people and fighting my desires to slaughter them. Hoping I can break the trend and get my life back on track, just how I like it.
Oh dear oh dear. I have a japanese test on Monday and I don't know the words :S
I have a health test, but I guess that doesn't really matter.... :P
I have a sports personality asignment but that's for health as well so it goes on the don't care pile.
Jeez, health is a pretty pointless subject. We learn about how smoking is bad for you but there is no need to have assignments and tests on those topics. I don't care about health as long as I'm healthy.